*you hurt me every second of the day, you just dont know you did;;

Had oral today. I did like shit in chinese. I came out feeling so depressed. I stood on my own outside the hall, thinking bout what I had said during the conversation. I was feeling so horrid, then Xiu Feng and Aaron came out. They talked to happily about theirs. But I just stared outside quietly. When they asked me what happened I just pulled away and said "dont ask". But they kept probing.. I couldnt stand it anymore.. I just told them everything.. And I started crying outside the hall..

Mr Pang saw me.. And asked Xiu Feng what happened.. I just mumbled to him "wo jue de zhi zi hen mei yong, oral ye zhou bu hao".. He just comforted me by patting my back.. But I couldnt face him..

I felt like shit then.. And I still feel like it now.. Although Aaron and Xiu Feng comforted me I felt abit better.. The teacher asked about motorcycle accidents, and I actually rambled on about the accident rate between youngsters of below 29 to old people. I cant believe I did that. I didnt even know what was "consequence" in chinese.. No wonder my tuition teacher said my chinese was really terrible.. Gab came out and saw that I had cried when she was 5 metres away from me. I really wish the one who invigilated [or whatever] me was Mr Kwa. He would interpret those words you didnt understand in english.. I think I did horribly for chinese oral.. I just feel like giving up now..